During our separation my son’s father starting attending church on his own (the Lord had placed godly people in his life one being his manager who was a pastor) and he ended up joining his manager’s church and getting baptized. I truly believed my husband had accepted Christ as I thought I was seeing some small changes. We ended up getting married.

Now, after 7 years of marriage, my husband calls himself saved, he will go to church with me without a problem and seems to really enjoy church, writing down the scriptures while we are there as if to study them.

Here is the problem: in the 7 years that we have been married I have never seen my husband pick up the Bible once. He knows no scripture, he is very worldly and listens to worldly music even in the presence of my 15 year old son and 3 year old daughter. His mouth is foul and he can be very verbally abusive.

He quit his job and now our only income is from a 1 night a week club party that he has. He has told me his desire to open another night club (he use to own one before we married) even though he assured me that he was beyond that before we got married.

If you asked my husband when did he come to Christ, he will say "I’ve been a Christian as long as I can remember". If we get into a discussion or disagreement and I will quote a scripture he get’s all upset and say things like "Oh, I forgot you were all sanctified" or "oh, you holier than though, there you go again". I think you get the drift.

I need to know how to pray for my husband. As of now, I don’t like him, despise might be a better word. I’m angry that I have to be the spiritual leader and fight with him about everything. Sorry to ramble.

Thanks for for time time to read my story.